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[Feb. 5th, 2004|03:52 pm] |
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&; Hacken Lee - Tall Girl
My Mother is just a SUPER unreasonable, and ignorant person. Like seriously she's always so one sided and unreasonable. Unreasonable + ignorant is like the only thing I can use to describe her. About what happened, I am not upset nor mad, I just feel bad that she's understand what I am trying to say, and why the hell is she so one sided, stubborn, and simply unreasonable?!!! Like WTF? You have to understand where I am coming from too and how would she feel if I wore one of her favorite shoes without even asking. And she knows that I wear that pair of shoes once in awhile too and it just buggs me that she's so unreasonable, ignorant, and stubborn like after living so many years of life.
Humans =__= AGH. Web communities... =____= AGH.
No one and I mean no one is worth my tear... and thats the end of the story.
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Valentine's Day is coming up *laughs* That is just about the mushiest day EVER especially for people like me *cries* Anyhoos, it's alright because this year is on a Saturday. THANK GOD!!! I don't wanna go to school and see people in madd love! >.< Sometimes I just wish I receive something and it just suxx to find that no one likes u *cries* *sigh* but thats OK. I am gonna avoid going out too coz I just HATE VALENTINE'S DAY. This day should be BANNED. Haha. But seriously, is this day even necessary? I mean for those who are in love, they should give gifts to one another often and treat them nice at all times... i mean if they do that once a year, that's sadd. And for those poorlies (LIKE ME Haha), it's a sad day!!! AIYOR!
And 'Min Kurn Mo Hun Fuk' so I shall put my fate in Heavenly Father's hands =) I believe in you. |
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[Feb. 4th, 2004|03:29 pm] |
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&; Fabulous - Into You
Hmph. Ionno but I feel quite... sick and... blahh. I saw him in the hallway today after I had English but he didn't see me. He was on the other side of the wall and I was on the other side, and we were going opposite ways. BUTBUT he had a Sixers jersey inside his blAck jacket. So.... he has a thing for basketball? Hmm, interesting =) But yah, ionno he's just a crush now and nothing more. Everything I've said before about wanting to be friends with him is still valid and yeah.. though it is least likely that I'll actually get to know him so I can dream on? Hah. >___<* How do u know when a guy actually likes you? When he actually does something to make things sounds so 'gum arm duck gum qew'.... and he actually puts effort to er.... to try to catch u? Ionno. I go to the washroom/locker like every block hoping to actually catch him. LOL. Did it work? Noope. Haha.
In Chem, we had to do these Moles to Moles Stoi..something and I felt so left out because everyone finished it on time etc.. and AGHH. I am so.. fustrated right now along with other numerous things. *sigh*
Q-Shiver is currently on hold. I guess I won't be updating it until I actually feel like it and once I get other things on track. Ionno, though I no longer experiences those depression cycle, I still feel rather.. fustrated, stress and lost at times. I guess I am still overall optimistic and everything but sometimes when I get tired and have lots of things to do, I just feel like I have stacks of bricks on my back and I don't know what to do.
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I am NOT ok =(
I can't really explain it.. I am so into you...
I wanna be more than just a friend of you... |
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[Feb. 3rd, 2004|06:59 pm] |
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&; Usher - You Got It Bad
Correction, I DO care ;x Before I went to English today, I passed by the IT place and guess WHO I saw?!! Him!! I saw him walked inside... *sigh* But he didn't see me! That stoopid doode >< K he was wearing a black jacket once again.. dyed hair.. red and white shoes that I believe are dunk low. *lovelove* I have a thing for guys with nice shoes =) but I think his is on sale for $50?!! So err..yeah.. Anyhoos, AGH.
Math tuitions was fine. I am actually getting chapter 6 but see the thing at school, I just started chapter 5 so err yes.... Nicken is in my class.. maybe I can get a rid from him if I really need one?! ^^ But I am not going to be an evil girl. I told my bro and he was like Was he happy? I was like WHAT?!! *English accent* Like seriously what kind of question is ThAT? Anyhoos.. Boo.....Calvin10 is such a kutie!!
My eyes are tired and I have some hw to do..... Lotz of ppl have been asking me what I want to do now.. and I've finally said Graphic Design/Communication Arts. I want to be a graphic designer/exhibit designer.. Mr. Miller said Toronto (Ryerson U.) has a really program and LA is definitely a good place to go too. Ionno but I am not too excited about actually moving to US. Yeah, I have something against them Hah. Ionno its probably because of the whole war thing and George Bush. Ionno. It already took me awhile for me to actually want to move East though LA is actually closer to T. but ionno... And they have those SATs things >.< BLAHH. I guess living in LA would be koolios because if I attend UCLA then I might have a bigger chance of actually going to pursuing a career in Asia since afterall it is UCLA. Ionno. So that might mean my chances of going back to HK would be a lot later than I expect. That suxx!! >.<
I hope my luck comes tomorow! I want him to SPOT me. UGHHH. I am not crazay about Puma Boy BUT i get a lil freaked out for him for Audzz. He's definitely got stylez though. REAL STYLEZ//[Gangsta] lovin'. =)
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Sometimes I really want to be in love because it seems like a wonderful feeling but I know once I fall in love, I am going to put everything that is important to me on hold even if I don't intend to... because I know myself to well. It's true when people say, "It's funny what love can do to you." You know it's love when you are willing to make sacrifices for that special person. You are willing to lose sleep just to talk to him, you are willing to take your time to do something for that person.... you actually think about that person 24/7. I am really hoping that one day when I fall in love, the guy would only make my life better. I want someone who would motivate me to work even harder and inspire me in a positive way. I want him to be by my side through good times and bad, and hold my hands when things get worst. I want him to be there through rain and shine. I want him to tell me that things will only get better. I just want someone who is true and real, and who is crazy + weird just like me. Someone who I can talk about weird stuff with all day and night, and still have so much more to say..... I am hopelessly romantic. *sigh* |
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[Feb. 1st, 2004|04:12 pm] |
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&; Alex Fong - Until Next Time
In my wildest dream, I would love to famous and be in the spotlight. I underlined wildest dream because it is in my wildest dream. By now I know myself pretty well and I am a REAL person and I have no fake side like otherz. Though I WOULD love to be famous but I am not like crazy and obsess with fame. I like living a well reserved type of life too. The fact is, I love fashion and I love taking photos... I would love to be a model.. If only I was prettier! >.< Oh, I have another pretty girl to add to my HK celeb list, Ada Choi. She's so pretty and like.. classy + reserve? Her skin is soo white and nice! My gawd. And Cheung Hor Yee, and Tung Lai Ming is pretty too. They are so fit too!! *jealous* And Moses Chan is my fave HK guy celeb. He's just got the stuFF!! *lovelove*
Anyhoos. I went shopping @ Oakridge today. And I went into this really nice store called Jessica. And I ended coming out with a jacket. It was like $ 90 ($100 with tax) and really nice too =) I saw a pair of nice converse and it was only $50 but I SERIOUSLY GOTTA STOP BUYING THINGS. I didn't use the coupon yet.. I was planning on getting some stuff in Aritzia but they had like nothing there so yerpp.. And @ Nike store, I saw a pair of really nice low dunk and it was.. $110 >.< It was SUPER NICE though. Grayish color with a baby blue tick. *lovelove* I SERIOUSLY CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT FASHION, SHOPPING & BUYING THINGS!! HELP ME?!! LMAO. I think I want to become a graphic designer/exhibit designer more than anything. Yesterday when I was at the senior centre, I researched more about this career at the site we got from CAPP, and it sounds so appealing and.. me! And everytime I walk in Oakridge, not only do I look at clothes (DUH!), I am really appealed by their designs at their window. I would seriously love to do something as a career and wouldn't it be great if I did that for MY OWN LINE? *dreams* ;P
I ask God to please forgive me for everything bad I've done. I am really and truly sorry, and I really mean it from the bottom of my heart. Before I didn't feel that bad until people who I use to be so close to starts to appear and be part of my life again. It makes me feel bad that I am such a naive person and I hate myself for it so much that when I think about the stuff that has happened, I am just... ashamed + embarrased. Deeply. BLAHHH. |
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[Jan. 31st, 2004|04:39 pm] |
&; Backstreet Boys - All I Have Give
Initial D starts filming in March and... Jay Chou, Edison Chen, Shawn Yu, and Hyori Lee is gonna be in it!! Hyori =*( A Korean chick. AGH. I don't know whether to cry or not. LMAO. But yeah, Hyori is a hawt girl.... -.- so much prettier than BoA in my opinion!! Ionno but BoA, she looks normal.. Oh, speaking of her, Elaine said one Chinese girl in her English class looks like her! I am interested in seeing her. Haha. Whatever it is, I am excited about Initial D =)
I re-did my nails AGAIN. It looks really girl right now... or a lil TOO girly? hmm.<
I wrote another poem about him. Aiyo. I have never written a poem about anyone and I finally understand that poetry comes from deep within and experiences. I really admire Dianne Warren, who's a famous music writer/producer and she has never been in love and still manages to write amazing love song. For me, that is impossible. Well that's because I am not much of a writer nor have I been in love. Hah. But I guess sometimes music doesn't have to be always about love.... |
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